So I had a bad day....

You ever have one of those days where it seemed like the whole world was against you? Where it seemed like no matter what you did, nothing turned out right? It didn't matter how hard you fought...you always got pushed down. <<That day was my day last Wednesday. I had an algebra test last Thursday, and I spent all last Wednesday studying for it. But no matter how long I spent staring at the screen (my math is online), I couldn't get it. My brain is not wired to compute numbers, so it was a very frustrating study session. I got in the car ready to give up. I called my mom and told her I just wanted to drop out of school and flip burgers for the rest of my life. I drove home, fed up with everything. I was angry, hurt and confused. I was angry at the people who invented algebra (still am!); I was hurt because no matter how hard I tried, it wasn't good enough; I was confused because even after 6 hours of studying, math still didn't make sense.

I didn't want to go to church that night....but I did. I didn't think I would hear anything revolutionary that would change my perspective, but I did.

Our pastor told us to open up to Exodus that night...Exodus 14. So I did, and the first verse I landed on was this:

The LORD shall fight for you, and you shall hold your peace.--Exodus 14:14

 

 

I cannot even begin to tell you how excited I was. I felt like God gave this verse especially to me. I just felt so relieved--yes, I was still stressed, but not AS stressed. I just felt like God was right there with me, saying, "I know it's overwhelming, but I'm right there with you....every step of the way".

So here I am now...sitting in the college's computer lab, continuing my college adventure. Things are still stressful; there are moments where I am extremely overwhelmed. I made not such a good grade on that algebra test, but I'm ok. I know I'm not in this alone. God has given me so much peace about the whole matter.

I know He's here fighting for me.